Sick kids...

Actually only one, Suzie, seems really sick, Ben is just growing I think. He's huge, and gets bigger by the day, it can't feel good to grow so much so quickly. Not much going on aside from that. I've been spending way too much time on Facebook, a fair amount of time reading Book 5 of the Southern Vampire series, and really an exciting amount of time re-reading some buddhist and 12 step texts. It feels good to have the time and desire to want to focus on health again.

I've been doing Eat to Live since a few days before Christmas; it's a really strict, mostly vegan diet and I've lost a ton of weight. It's cool though, between the diet and Ben's lactose intolerance there is just so much that I can't eat; I'm pretty much eating oatmeal and a fruit smoothie for breakfast, a huge salad for lunch, and a bowl of soup or a pound of steamed veggies for dinner (I'm seriously eating about 3 FREAKING POUNDS of vegetables a day); and it's kind of like my body has detoxed its craving for crap out of itself. About once a week I'll go on a bender and eat like, an entire box of applets and cotlets or make up some vegan cookie dough and eat it raw but other than that, it feels like a weight has been lifted to not be thinking about food all the time.

Have I mentioned how much I love Zoloft?

I suppose not since I haven't really mentioned anything since November but honestly, if Zoloft wanted to have a spokesmodel--I would sooooo volunteer. It's changed my life, really; I wish I'd started taking it YEARS ago. I am so calm and peaceful, very little phases me, I'm much more tolerant of others, I'm just...happy. The other night I stayed up later than my family, just playing on the computer, when I got in bed at 11, instead of fighting through my stress to fall asleep, I just layed (lied, lie???) cuddling with Ben and smiling. I smiled my way to sleep. Isn't that wild? It's amazing.

I really wouldn't call myself a blogger.

But I will say that my little boy is 3 months old today and weighs 17 pounds. He can also roll onto his side and then do a little grunt and flail himself back onto his back. He's obviously a genius.

Other than that...not much. I'm getting unemployment, I'm vacuuming a lot, I'm baking muffins. I've lost 60 pounds since 11/11.

I love Facebook.